Day 29 – A Picture of Me—On My Wedding Day

January 29, 2026January 29, 2026 Larada Horner-MillerLeave a comment

One of my favorite pictures of me is on my wedding day, October 22, 2011. The sheer joy shines in my eyes. And here’s the reason why!

Back Story

My ex-husband and I separated in 2008. We divorced in early 2009. My best girlfriend, Kathi Raver, in square dancing died in November 25, 2009. My ex-husband and I did lots of fun activities with Kathi and her husband, Lin—we went to square dance festivals and dance together. We played games in each other’s homes. Also, we danced weekly at our three club dances.

After the first of the year, Lin called me asking if I would like to dance with him at the three club dances. Because we were friends before, the dancing moved into more of a relationship.

So, we officially started dating in May 2010 and married in 2011. It might appear that we rushed this, but Kathi had said repeatedly to me when my ex and I broke up to get over it—give it six months and go on.

Lin proposed to me on Christmas Day, 2010 in Branson, Colorado in front of my mom and my aunt—what a precious day that was!

Then he spent the year telling everyone at square dance festivals were at all over the country to come to our wedding! He evenly got up on the microphone at some and made the big announcement.

Our Wedding Day

Because of our love for dancing, we got married at the Albuquerque Square Dance Center. My brother and mom gave me away. He had two best men and I had eleven brides’ maids.

Because of our multiple marriages my Episcopal priest couldn’t marry us, so we found someone on the internet, and she did a beautiful job, weaving our story into our vows, even referencing recovery quotes for me.

So, we had a short ceremony and a big dance party afterwards! Three hundred of closest friends attended with some flying in from Florida and Tennessee.

During the ceremony, I read Lin a poem I wrote for the occasion. Here it is:

Larada reading her poem to Lin - picture — Close up of Larada reading her poem to Lin

Close up of Larada reading her poem to Lin

It’s Here! Our Wedding

October 22, 2011

It's here!

Our life together starts today

The past is behind us
The future looms positively in our view!

I have labored over the words to say to you.
How do I find words to describe what has happened 
Between us

There is not a container to hold it 

We come from 2 rich, full lives 
a small town New Jersey boy and
a country girl from Colorado
Other places, other times
Other husbands, other wives

We arrive here today
From tragedy 
The loss of Kathi
Your dear former wife
And My dear friend

We arrive here today
From joy
In our newfound relationship,
Having been friends for years!
I knew you and liked you before
I fell in love with you!

Thank you for proposing to me
On Christmas morning, 2010
In front of Mom and Aunt Willie, 
My 92 year old aunt 
and 
making It official.

When You met My dear Uncle Tanky 
After you proposed, he took me aside 
And said he's the best!

I agree—I have no doubt.

Many of our friends here today have 
Told us that they will be glad when we get married,
So we would stop kissing and hugging each other
All the time!

I will never stop!
Each kiss and each hug heals my soul at a deeper level
I want more!

Lin, to me
You are a cool mountain breeze
Deer stopping by for nourishment & comfort!
You are laughter!  Every Wednesday night at 
     round dancing when you refer to the foxtrot 
     as the F word, I laugh deeply!

I know that the life we will start today 
Is rich
blessed
And oh, so good!

As I look out over
Our family and friends,
I know we have the support
And power to make this marriage
Become a fascinating adventure.

Today we become husband and wife
And some of you may wonder
"why?"
At our age.

Here's my reason—
I wanted to stand today before
My family and friends and God and profess 
     my love to you.
To me the sacrament of marriage 
Has a different value today!
I wanted the protection for us
That marriage offers.

I commit today 
To be Larada
Creative, messy, wacky and fun!

I ask you to be Lin.
Creative, neat, linear and goofy!

Together we form a "we"
That's dynamic!

I could site a long list of thank you's today, 
     but I want to thank you mostly for one thing—
     choosing to
Share the rest of your 
Life with me!  It's here!

After I read this, Lin played, I Cross My Heart, a George Strait song for me—George is my favorite.

Finally,

The joy on my face in the picture below shows exactly what this day was for me—the best day of my life!

Larada Horner-Miller on her wedding day - picture

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Day 21 – Here and There!: A Poem About Two Places

January 21, 2026January 21, 2026 Larada Horner-Miller5 Comments

For most of my adult life, I have struggled with “here” and “there.” I grew up, moved and had my adult home but my home in Branson, Colorado always called to me.

After our move to Panamá, this poem came up when I was visiting in Branson in December 2025. Witness my current struggle with “here” and “there”!

Here & There: Juggling Two Lives

The familiar train whistle blows

And I know I’m home

In Branson,

A sound that echoes through my childhood.

The wind blows

Dust devils twirl on the plains.

The mesa towers to the southwest of us.

Saddlerock hangs to the west

As another reminder of home.

This my here now!

Our family ranch calls to me

Dad voices his familiar stories

In my heart

Granddad looms large in my history

Mom’s sweet presence and squeals of delight

Echo in my soul

Memories overflow

Even though they’re gone.

Now, sitting beside my brother

With our stories.

He’s the only one who can verify their truth

Our stories

Our family’s stories

Sometimes quiet fills the truck cab

Dust swirls

Silence

Reverence for our shared lives

My brother opens up while we ride around

Safe

With deep stories

His childhood disappointments

At our community church.

I never knew!

Why???

The familiar sights

Cholla cactus

Graceful with arms extended

Yucca

Sharp spikes pointing heavenly

Pinon pine trees

Cedar trees

The smell I love!

Oak brush, orange at this time of the year

Dead trees ravaged by drought and bugs

A windy trail, bumpy with rocks

Reminds me of a Canyon Lullaby!

We try to make daily trips to the ranch,

But our busy schedule doesn’t allow.

Each trip feeds my soul, my spirit, my heart!

The train whistles in the background

Of my life here

Several times a day

Welcomed and comforting!

This house I inherited overflows

With Mom and Dad

I just used Mom’s pressure cooker

To cook spaghetti noodles

She called it her “Poor Man Microwave.”

Dad’s pot on the stove

To add some humidity to this dry climate.

Here my life is

Ranch business,

English, English, English!

No one knocks on my door anymore

My brother only

I visited my 96-year-old friend

But she’s failing!

That’s the here, but underneath

The “there” beckons!

Life there!

Our new life in Panama

Green jungle surrounds us

New friends live near us

They knock on my door.

Beautiful clear mornings as we look towards

Vulcan Barú

Rainy afternoons during the rainy season now.

Our life carved out

Two markets for fun and people

A knitting group

My recovery group

Basketball games, following one of our landlords

A more relaxed life

Less stress

US politics not the focus

No dishwasher in our rental house

Gives me time looking out the window

At the green

The colorful flowers

The hummingbird buzzing the lavender flowers

Being present

A gift!

Here my life is

My book business

Spanish, English, Spanish

Which I love!

I never planned to move

To Panama

I planned to live and die in Tijeras

And visit Branson

My here and there

Used to be Tijeras, then Branson

But we stood on our decision and morals

We said no to the insanity

We took action,

Well planned by Lin

And it happened

Here and there—juggling these two lives

When I’m here, I think of there.

When I’m there, I yearn for here.

My Writing Group

I shared this on Monday with my Writing Group from New Mexico at a Zoom meeting. One person’s critiqued: “I loved the homeyness of it. Also, I can relate to the train because I had a train in my childhood. I also love the line – ‘The “here” now.’”

Another writer in the group shared he loved the visuals and it felt so many of the topics in it were universal.

Finally,

Juggling the here and there has become an art for me—I’ve done it my whole life. What are your thoughts about this poem? Any line resonate with you? Any topic remind you of something in your life? I hope it did and please share it.

Larada Horner-Miller - here — Here or there? Where am I?

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Mom, Again—Is This Too Much? A Natural for Women’s History Month

March 23, 2025March 23, 2025 Larada Horner-MillerLeave a comment

ith her Panda hat on!- would have — With her Panda hat on!

At a Branson-Trinchera Reunion! - would have — With her Panda hat on!

Can we ever write too much about our moms? I continue to honor women in my life for National Women’s History Month, and Mom is a natural to share today.

Today is twelve years since Mom died. I feel melancholy and I yearn for her familiar presence in my life! As I struggle with this anniversary, I remember the multiple moments that explode in my memory of our last day together.

I feel a poem coming on! This is a rough first draft, so let me know what you think! You’re going to get to see how I write my poetry: thoughts come to me and then I go with it, massage it, enlarge it and then possibly delete the whole thing. I’ll share the final copy with you in a couple weeks.

Can You Ever Write Too Much About Our Your Mom?

Your mom, mine
	Our first playmates,
		The familiar heartbeat that we knew!
	She looms large in our lives
And then the day comes—
        She dies!
Can you ever write too much about your mom?

Today, twelve years after her death,
	I wonder—
		Can I ever write too much about Mom?

Here I am 71, remembering her at my age.
	I don’t feel old,
		But I remember her older,
			Vibrant,
				A large part of my life!

I circle back to her daily,
	With a thought, ‘she’d like this. She’d laugh at that!”
That’s how she lives with me!

My mom, like yours, holds 
a special place in your heart.
Anniversaries come and go—
	I’ve cried over the years,
		But the earthshaking pain
			Has lessened.
Why is today different?
	Melancholy
		A deep yearning for her.
Why?

I have called my brother several times today,
	The anniversary of her death,
	About the NCAA tournament
		Never mentioned Mom and today’s loss,
			But I needed him!
				I needed the connection to her!

As I’ve lived these twelve years
	Without Mom,
I missed sharing my triumphs,
			My first book, This Tumbleweed Landed, self-published.
She never held a brand-new copy in her hands
	And sobbed with me 
		With my success
			With tears of joy!

I missed talking about the actual writing,
The book awards,
My journey
 	And her influence in many of them.

As I researched background for When Will Papa Get Home?,
	She would have enjoyed a visit to the Philly Place
		And reminiscing.
	Mom would have loved Maria and her whole family
		But cried at the prejudice and injustice
                     they endured.

Actually, she did read my first two books,
	Because I wrote them before she died.
She read everything I wrote,
	Flooding me with compliments 
and suggestions to change.

Mom helped me write my book, Let Me Tell You a Story,
	With Dad in 1992.
He dictated the stories to her and she wrote them
	Out long hand.
Then I typed them up—
	A family production.
So, she saw that book published
	For my dad’s 75th birthday.

Dad and Mom danced to Marshall Flippo
	So, she would have loved the stories
		Of our conversation.
If she would have read Just Another Square Dance Caller,
	They would have danced to many of Flippo’s caller friends.
	Her laughter would have rung out loud at the hilarious
		Stories and Flippo’s “Dirty joke.”

My grief memoir, Time to Grow Up, about her death and Dad’s,
	Would have overwhelmed Mom.
She was shy, unassuming,
	never wanting to be 
		On the center stage.
So that book would have been too much for her,
	But I can see her finishing it with a sigh
		And a comment, “Good job! You captured your pain!”

I am so glad she didn’t experience the coronavirus pandemic,
	Isolated alone in our home
		In a small ranching community.
Before she died, I called her daily,
	But I would have called her more often.
If she would have read my book, Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better?
	She would have answered every question
		At the end of every chapter
			And thanked me for the comfort
				And challenge of the book.

With my book, Hair on Fire: A Heartwarming & Humorous Christmas Memoir, 
	Mom would have laughed out loud at the humor,
		And thanked me for the deep spiritual message
			I offered the reader.

My new book, Was It a Dream?: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry,
	Would have thrilled her 
                with reading poetry about George Strait.	

And today, Mom would be saying, “
Where’s the next book? 
I’m ready for it!
	Come on, girl!”

I keep saying “would have,” but she walked beside me
	On every book,
		Sat next to me as I wrote every word.

As I’ve grown in my faith,
	I miss our deep spiritual talks
		Driving around the ranch.

Her laughter and sense of humor blessed any time
	We were together.

For twelve years or longer, I miss her cooking, 
her rattling around in the kitchen,
	knowing a delicious meal would be coming soon!

When someone owns a deep space
	In your heart,
Their absence leaves a hole.

I’ve spent twelve years 
	Healing
	Crying
	Writing
	Dancing
	Healing

But here I am, twelve years later,
	Missing my mom!
		Her smell
			Her laughter
				Her presence.

Do we ever get over the loss of mom?
Can You Ever Write Too Much About Our Your Mom?
	I can’t!

Finally,

Writing about all the “would haves” for my mom, once again has helped me deal with today. What’s your thoughts?

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A Redhead Once Again!

February 23, 2025February 23, 2025 Larada Horner-MillerLeave a comment

I’m a redhead once again! I’ve not felt like it for the past seven months—but I decided last Thursday it was time, time to reclaim my life.

I’m not a natural redhead, so I became a redhead from a bottle. In fact, over the last seven months, I noticed a strong growth of white hair around my face—not a lot sprinkled elsewhere, but some! I inherited my dark hair color from my mom and grandmother and our German roots.

My Family History

My dad was a redhead, so much so his nickname as a young man was “Red.” I never knew him as a redhead because his hair had thinned out and changed to a brown speckled with some gray. I learned about this nickname years later from one of his friends.

My half-sister and half-brother both were redheads, and I always admired their hair color growing up!

First Time a Redhead

In May 2007, Kathi Raver, Lin’s deceased wife, Lin, Ted and I were at a square and round dance festival in Norfolk, Nebraska. The morning after the festival, we had a delicious breakfast at a local restaurant, rivaling in the fun memories of the weekend and were standing in line to pay.

Kathi noticed a woman in line ahead of us and said to me with a mischievous twinkle in her eyes, “Go ask that woman what color she uses. You would look good with that color hair.”

I looked at the woman’s flaming red hair and felt a nudge inside, so I walked up to her, and asked what color she used—”Hot Tamale by Garnier Nutrisse.” I shared this information with Kathi when I returned and tucked it away.

At that point in my life, I hadn’t reconsidered coloring my hair. I had been a beautician for fourteen years before I became a teacher. I experimented regularly with coloring my hair. In fact, I volunteered to be the first to have my hair “frosted” in Beauty School only to end up with a green cast to my frost.

For many years, I bleached out the “frame” around my face and experimented with a variety of shades of color, from silver to pink. Right before my best friend’s wedding, I “framed” my face with red—fire engine red, and it horrified her when she saw me because my maid-of-honor dress was peach, and I was to wear a peach hat. What a clashing color combination that was!

So, I came home from Nebraska and pondered the possibility but didn’t do anything immediately. In June or July, I went to Colorado to visit my mom and told her about the idea. She always loved to do adventurous things with her hair, so we did it.

When I came home a redhead, Ted’s only comment was, “So you did it!” I continued coloring my hair until October or November and decided it was too much work.

Second Time a Redhead

Fast forward to 2013. My mom passed away in March, and in the summer, I needed an uplift—I remembered the “Hot Tamale” color and went for it. I loved the new me in the mirror and I received lots of compliments. It felt right!

Garnier Nutrisse did away with “Hot Tamale” a few years ago, so I changed to “Red Hibiscus” and have loved it ever since.

I continued coloring my hair until July, 2024 when the dog viciously attacked me. To say the less—I focused on recovering and making it through another day. At first, I couldn’t stand easily and used a cane. Then it just slipped past me. In fact, it was too much to do in my mind with all the doctor’s appointments and the pain.

Not a redhead anymore! Notice the white hair!

About 4-5 months after the dog attack, someone asked me, “Where’s the redhead?”

I said, “She’s dead.” I really felt that vivacious, energetic person I had been for so many years had died.

A week ago Friday a good friend, Cindy Gillette, asked me, “Where’s the redhead?” That’s all she knew me as. I told her about my earlier response, but I was feeling more like a red head again.

After pondering it for a few days, I decided it was time. So, last Thursday, Lin (my hearty assistant) and I colored my hair. The redhead is back! I look in the mirror and love what I see! I know in my heart-of-hearts—I’m a redhead!

So, what does that mean?

Am I totally healed? Yes, the wound has been healed for a few months, but I still struggle with nerve damage pain. I’ve had five injections in my ankle and leg with little relief. Next Wednesday, I see the pain management doctor and he’s going to do two trigger point injections in my knee and butt because the pain radiates up from my ankle to my butt. I also have an appointment at the end of March for another three injections in my ankle. We have no idea what the prognosis is.

No, I’m not totally healed, but this redhead can hear her dad saying, “Take the bulls by the horns. Don’t let the SBs win! Drink a lot of ice water and stay in there. Quitters never win and winners never quit.” You can see my ole cowboy dad was full of what he thought were motivational sayings.

Yes, today I agree with Dad—no matter what—I have to be true to myself, keep going and for now—that means being a redhead!

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Day 29 – A Picture of Me—On My Wedding Day

Back Story

Our Wedding Day

It’s Here! Our Wedding

Finally,

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Day 21 – Here and There!: A Poem About Two Places

Here & There: Juggling Two Lives

My Writing Group

Finally,

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Mom, Again—Is This Too Much? A Natural for Women’s History Month

Finally,

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A Redhead Once Again!

My Family History

First Time a Redhead

Second Time a Redhead

So, what does that mean?

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