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One Last Look: The Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better? Format

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Here’s one last look this month at Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better?, my award-winning book. I wrote parts of it as blog posts right here, but I added to it. The format of the book’s chapters enriched it with key parts. I began each of the chapters with a meaningful photo or graphic and quote. Then I ended the chapter with a reflection question(s), wanting the reader to reflect and personalize what she just read. My motto for this book became: Read, reflect and respond!

Key Parts of Each Chapter

Because I’m a visual learner, I love photos and graphics and used them a lot in this book. So much so, I had to compress the photos before I could publish the e-book. That was quite an experience.

I also know that a lot of readers react and respond to visual stimulus. While I was teaching, I remember watching my students. The majority of them were visual learners, and I have been out of the classroom over fifteen years, but I recall their need for visuals to understand a difficult lesson.

The recent following statistic doesn’t surprise me: “Visual learners – the remaining 65% of the population – need to see what they are learning,. . .”

https://papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=587201

Then I added a meaningful quote in this book that either summarized the theme of the chapter or reflected its message. Again, I wanted my reader to be able to connect on different levels to my writing.

I don’t write in one genre only; I see the place for prose. I love writing poetry, so the format of the book has a mixture of each.

Sample the format I Used in the Middle

Here’s the last chapter of the book. It only has prose, no poetry but the topic is as relevant today as it was then. You can see the format though:

Chapter Thirty-One

VACCINATED: SHORT, SWEET, & TO THE POINT

“You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you’ll join us, and the world will be as one…”

John Lennon 

COVID 19 on blocks - Last look

May 16, 2021

Finally, I got vaccinated on Friday morning with my second COVID-19 shot. I received my first one on March 31st. Yes, that’s a long time in-between, but I had conflicts in my schedule. I had no reactions to the first one except for a sore arm.

I got the Moderna, and I’ve heard more people have reactions to it. My husband received the Pfizer vaccine and had no reaction at all. I wasn’t so lucky for the second shot. The rest of the day I felt okay, but my arm hurt where I was vaccinated. Yesterday and today have been a different story. I’ve slept the days away.

 Woman asleep in a bed - Last look

Yesterday I had a slight fever, chills, aches like the flu, but nothing too bad. I just slept! Today’s the same. The endless sleeping has been strange—lots of images, not dreams, and noise in my ears! When I wake up, I’m tired and exhausted, ready to go back to bed. My brain feels fuzzy.

For this A-type personality I am, this has been hard on me! I’m usually going ninety miles an hour! I have things to do, people to see, life to live!

My seventeen-year-old cat, Jesse, didn’t like me being inaccessible to him, so he made it upstairs twice yesterday to sleep outside our bedroom door. He doesn’t easily make it upstairs anymore because of his arthritic back legs—you can’t tell me cats don’t love!

This evening has been better—I’m not sound asleep. Today my brain is still fuzzy, and it’s hard to concentrate, but I’ve been able to do this blog, so that’s progress. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! The good news is I’m vaccinated!

What I learned these two strange days from being vaccinated is that you have to listen to your body! I went to bed and slept, and that was probably the best medicine for me.

Chapter 31 Continued

When my two-week waiting period was over, immediately I scheduled a haircut appointment, and Mark trimmed my hair, marveling at how much it had grown. We laughed and caught up on our lives, and he loved my new longer, curly look. It felt so good to be out and not worrying about the coronavirus. Lin and I ate out a couple times, savoring the opportunity to be with others and not fearful. Our state opened up more and provided more opportunities to get out.

Pushing the H up the hill to hope - Last look

Facing the future with the vaccine behind me, normalcy seems a real possibility. I’ve planned a trip to Colorado to see my brother and his children and grandchildren—I expect a bucket load of hugs. I haven’t been there since February because of my cataract surgeries and the restrictions.

The possibility of dancing looms ahead of me—I can’t describe the deep-seated feelings attached with that. Even though I anticipate a hopeful future, I plan to carry with me all that I’ve learned in this intense time apart. I will step towards an unknown future, optimistic because I know I am better, not bitter, for having survived the coronavirus pandemic.

Larada Horner-Miller, Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better, (Horner Publishing Company, 20), 281-285.


To end each chapter, I challenged the reader to reflect on a probing question I posed. Again, my teacher side showed up. I knew that this book had the possibility of taking the reader to a deeper level if he/she took the time to respond to my question. So in this way, the book became a journal really.

Here’s the questions I used at the end of Chapter 31:

YOUR REFLECTIONS:

Did you get vaccinated? If so, did you have a reaction to the vaccine? If so, what?

Finally,

One last look this month at my book has reminded me of the power of this book. My premise of the subtitle, Bitter or Better, still stands. I had a choice during the pandemic of becoming either bitter or better. I chose better; I hope you did, too!

FREE OFFER: Download a FREE personal journal of Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better?, featuring the photos/graphics and the reflection questions for each chapter. Let me know what you think about it.

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Awards · Christmas · Coronavirus · Grief · Marshall Flippo · Memoirs · Memories · My Books · My Thoughts · New Mexico · poetry

An Award Winner: Coronavirus Reflections And More!

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Award winner—I have won several awards for my ten books, but Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better? won two New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards that thrilled me. For some reason, those two awards outweighed the other multiple awards.

But I wanted to share the others with you!

In 2016, This Tumbleweed Landed was a finalist in the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards in the Biography (Other) category.

I had submitted it the year before in the poetry category and got sage advice from someone in the know about the awards. The poetry category was highly competitive.

So, the next year (2016) I submitted it the Biography (Other) category. It didn’t win, but I felt so excited to be a finalist. Lin and I dressed up and went to the banquet with the other writers. It felt other-worldly.


In 2016 and 2017, When Will Papa Get Home? was a finalist in the Historical Fiction category. But once, again it didn’t win the category.


In 2017 & 2018 A Time to Grow Up: A Daughter’s Grief Memoir received five book awards:

  • 2018 New Mexico-Arizona Book Awards “Finalist” in 2 categories: E-book Nonfiction and E-book Cover
  • 2018 Book Excellence Awards “Finalist” in the Memoir category
  • 2018 Independent Press Awards “Distinguished Favorites” in the Memoir category
  • 2017 New Apple Book Awards for Excellence in Independent Publishing ”Official Selection” in the Biography|Autobiography|Memoir category
  • 2017 New Mexico-Arizona book awards “Finalist” in 2 categories: Biography (Other) and E-book Nonfiction

But once again, A Time to Grow Up: A Daughter’s Grief Memoir didn’t win either category in the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards.


In 2021 Just Another Square Dance Caller: Authorized Biography of Marshall Flippo was a Finalist in the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards in two categories: Biography and Nonfiction E-book. It did not win either category.

Also, it received the eLit Silver Award and Book Excellence Award Finalist.


Finally, in 2022 & 2023 Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better? won the Award for the Body, Mind & Spirit category in 2022. In 2023 it won in the Self-Help category.


In 2024, Hair on Fire: A Heartwarming & Humorous Christmas Memoir won a Silver Medallion in the Christmas Books category of the Global Book Awards.

It won 1st Place in the Nonfiction Book Cover Contest on AllAuthors.com.

In the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards, it was a Finalist in two categories: Parenting & Family and Philosophy/Religion. It didn’t win either category.


In 2024, Was It a Dream?: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry  became a Gold Medalist for the Poetry – Verse category. It received an Honorable Mention in the Reader’s Choice Contest. Then in 2025, it received a Bronze medal in the Global Book Awards in the Poetry – Verse category.

I didn’t enter it in the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards.

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This year has been a banner year for my new poetry book, Time Measured Out!: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry. It was Third Place Winner at BooksShelf.com. Then the cover won 2nd place in the AllAuthor.com nonfiction book cover contest. Recently, I got word this second book in my five-book poetry series won a Gold Medal in the Global Book Poetry – Verse category.

And this year isn’t over, so watch out!


In focusing this month on Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better?, winning the local writing contest of the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards felt so wonderful. I had submitted my books for six years. During those years, I attended each banquet, full of excitement and anticipation. I had the pleasure of being a finalist, but never the winner at a banquet.

At the banquets I went to and lost, the winner received a beautiful glass trophy and was recognized by all in attendance. Everyone received a certificate too in the mail. I won during the aftermath of the pandemic, so there was no banquet, no trophy and no certificate for each win. I felt cheated!

Let me share another poem from Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better? from Chapter 13.

A man waiting - awards

The Wait for What?

May 13, 2020

Since March 9,
I self-quarantined
For two weeks
I stayed put!

Then it stretched
To May 15!

March
April
Half of May.

Drastic
Maybe
Wise and cautious
For sure.

I obey the restrictions.
I wear a mask.
I adhere to six feet
In social distance.
I apply hand sanitizer
After each necessary outing.

Yet the battle rages.
Some say it’s a hoax
Protest
Violate the restrictions.

In the name of the first amendment
Free exercise of religion
Freedom of speech
Freedom of the Press
Right to assemble peaceably
The right to petition the government
For the redress of grievances.

Important freedoms I love.

In the name of the second amendment
A well-regulated militia, being necessary
To the security of a free State,
The right of the people to keep
And bear arms shall not be
Infringed.

The right to bear arms
because of the coronavirus restrictions?
Really?

Can you shoot this enemy?
A minuscule virus particle
Why guns?
Why assault weapons?
An AT4 rocket launcher?

Why Confederate flags?
Swastikas?
The militant attitude, Army fatigues, and camouflage gear?

As this continues,
Confusion mounts.
As the unrest continues,
My confusion soars.
Why?

A virus
Killing thousands
Demands naysayer’s denial and protests?

Why do you deny the serious nature of the coronavirus?
Ill-advised?
Ignorant?
Stupidity?

Why do you clamor
About socialism
And your rights?
Selfish
Self-centered
Me, me, ME!

What about compassion?
Caring for others?
It’s not about you,
you,
you!

The wait for normalcy
logic
and
compassion to surface
may be a long time in coming!

For some!

For others,
it never left!

YOUR REFLECTIONS

Did you ever confront someone else for their careless behavior? If so, what happened?

Larada Horner-Miller, Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better, (Horner Publishing Company, 20), 109-115.

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Finally,

I am so thankful for the awards I’ve won. Isn’t it funny that the New Mexico/Arizona Book Awards mattered so much to me? My local peers?

What are your thoughts about book awards? Are they a selling point for a book to you? Let me know!

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After 20 Years: Hot August Nights in the Bag!

Hot August Nights Committee celebrating 20 years!
Hot August Nights Committee celebrating 20 years!

Our 20th Annual Hot August Nights Square and Round Dance Festival is over. What a great event! We danced, we saw old friends, and we met new ones.

It all started 20 years ago, three couples created this event—Ted Wright & Larada, Lin Miller & Kathi Raver, and Bill & Freddi Franks. Lin and I are the only people left from the original committee. Then we have added these following wonderful people: Mary Jo Smith, Sheri Pastian, Joan Oliver, Jim & Gabrielle Murphy, Earl Quick, Cathy McKenna, Robert & Lisa Miller, and Gloria Schwab.

It has become a smashing success in the Southwest square dance world. Our staff this year made it fantastic: Mike Seastrom, caller and his wife, Lisa, and Mitch & Chelsea Thompson, cuer.

Lin and I flew in from Panama on Thursday after a horrible travel day on Wednesday because of this festival. It started on Friday afternoon with the Welcome Dance. Mike enjoyed sharing the stage with Kris Jensen Friday afternoon.

Friday night has been traditional our “Beach Party” dance with dancers wearing fun beach ware. Beach balls floated around the hall all night. We danced from 8-10:30 and ended the night with our traditional root beer floats.

During the night Mike, Mitch and Chelsea did a Pentatonix song that was amazing.

Mike, Chelsea & Mitchell Singing a Pentatonix Song

Saturday morning started with introduction to round dancing session with Mitchell and Chelsea and then a round dance workshop for experienced dancers.

The committee went out to lunch with Mitchell and Chelsea. We talked about square and round dancing in Colorado where they live.

Then the afternoon started with Mike warming us up with High Energy dancing. Then Mike did Singing Calls for an hour. Harue Swift from Arizona joined Mike on one of the songs.The afternoon ended with a Plus workshop.

During the afternoon, Lin and Larada donned their Guerreros shirts from the men’s basketball team in Boquete, Panama they follow. The team was playing in the Championship game Saturday night. So we asked the dancers to help create a video with the cheer, “Uno, dos, tres—Guerreros!” Here’s the video. (Sadly, they lost!)

Our dancers join in on a cheer for the Guerreros team in Panama!

Saturday night everyone wore beautiful square dance attire, if they wanted to! Here’s me doing a round dance with a friend from Colorado!

Larada round dancing with a friend from Colorado

Mitchell and Chelsea entertained us with a beautiful tango demo of round dancing!

Mitchell & Chelsea dancing a tango!

Mike, Mitchell and Chelsesa sang another song together and the harmony was amazing!

What a lovely evening we had. Again, we ended with root beer floats and visiting with friends.

Every Sunday morning at Hot August Nights features craziness for sure. We love to do scatter promenade which mixes the squares up.

At one point, Mike sang “Wooly, Bully” and a group in the back of the hall formed a chorus line. We ended with a congo line weaving our way to the front of the hall. Some of the dancers joined us. What fun! Here’s the link to the our fun chorus line:- https://www.facebook.com/larada.horner/

Sadly, Hot August Nights is over for another year! 20 years of fun and dancing! It is the highlight of the year for me!


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I have dedicated 20 years of my life to Hot August Nights and I don’t regret it at all. Also, I have dedicated decades to my writing, so I love featuring a book a month. Tell me what you think!

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Larada and Lin in our Hot August Nights Outfits!

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Books · Coronavirus · God · Memories · My Books · My Thoughts · poetry

Have you Ever Wrestled with God? I Did! And I Do!

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In my past I have wrestled with God over many things. I wanted a baby. After divorcing the first time, I wanted a husband who didn’t drink. During the coronavirus pandemic, I wrestled with God about the whole horrible thing.

Here’s Chapter Eight from my book, Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better?, that featured a poem and then prose about this very subject—how I wrestled with God.

The door of the human heart, can only be opened from the inside…

William Holman Hunt

Wrestled with God

May 17, 2020

As March 2020 ended, I pondered God and faith issues in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic and sheltering in place. Even though we had only been dealing with this for a month, I continued to worry about Lin and my safety in the midst of this craziness. After each day’s case tally, I felt more inclined to hibernate. I seldom ventured out—only for groceries and prescriptions, but I ventured inward.

As I see the coronavirus cases increase, I wonder, “Where is God? Who will protect me from this insidious enemy? My husband tries his best, but what if?” So many people have died. Screams of despair reverberate across the world, all the way to my home in New Mexico. So many mourn the loss of a son, a daughter, a mother, a father, or a grandparent. And not just mourn the loss, but that he or she died alone with no one familiar to hold a hand, wipe a tear, and whisper, “I love you.”

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Dear God, in your infinite mercy, where are you?

As I reflected on my bewilderment over my God and the coronavirus, a favorite quote of Mother Teresa’s came to me again, feeling like a balm, “Each one of them is Jesus in disguise.” I choose to see that disguise in an overworked doctor, a nurse, an LPN, a caring neighbor, a stranger’s smiling eyes in the grocery store, or a phone call or text message to check-in with loved ones.

Even as I question what’s happening, I believe God is in the midst of this. I feel as though His heart breaks as He watches the loss and the horror. But it’s Mother Teresa’s words that fully bring me understanding, that help re-cement my faith in Him and his servants.

As this pandemic has struck, many people seeking a spiritual answer wonder about their personal faith as I did. Often, I hear people say either faith or fear, but I came up with a different answer.

Faith and Fear, Not Faith or Fear

March 31, 2020

It’s not either or.
I’m human—
Fear lurks
Faith falters.
But
I can open my hands,
Have faith in one
And fear in the other.

I can raise them up
To my God,
Overflowing with both!

Then I can release
Both
To do what needs done.

Fear reminds me
I’m vulnerable.
Faith reminds me
God is in control.
I need both.

Fear chokes my throat,
Strangling the life out of me.
Faith hugs me close,
Saturating my heart with love.
I need both.

In the midst of this spiritual battle,
God extends his hand
Offering solace
For my questions,
My concerns,
This dilemma.

Fear drives me to despair
Faith draws me to the Comforter.
Yes, I need both
In balance.

Too much fear
Paralyzes me.
Too much fear
Focuses me
On the problem.
Then my faith comes
And refocuses me
On the solution.

I want more faith
Less fear
But I need both!
A balance
To stabilize me
To force me
To look outside
Myself to Him
Who waits for me!

Faith is power,
So is fear.
I yearn to be faith-powered!
Not fear driven!
A couple riding horses at sunset - wrestled

Do you question God and his presence in this world? I do because we talk regularly, and we have that kind of relationship. I don’t need to blame God about the pandemic because my God is good, but I challenged Him—where are you? What about faith and fear? Can I have both at the same time?

I labored over God’s apparent absence in my worldly concerns, the possibility still of Lin or me getting the coronavirus. I battled with the need to go out into the world for necessities and the fear that overcame me. The uncertainty of what we faced now and ahead loomed over me like a shroud. Would it get worse? Then add to those concerns my spiritual battle with faith and fear. As always, poetry helped me wrestle with deep emotions about this controversial time and face some spiritual reservations.

After much introspection through said poetry, I do believe God is in control of this mess, my mess, any mess that comes along. I put my trust in God and know He’s in every person fighting this battle we’re in and every gorgeous flower blooming in Lin’s garden. I wind my way through the caverns of questioning always to arrive back at that same place—my faith restored and strengthened in my quest.

After this wrestling match, I saw my God’s hand in places I hadn’t noticed before: the healing hands of the ER doctor and nurses, Lin’s preparatory endeavors in his garden, and the early signs of spring. Yes, God is in control.

Hand touching the earth - wrestled

What issues have you wrestled with during this crisis?

Larada Horner-Miller, Coronavirus Reflections: Bitter or Better?, (Horner Publishing Company, 2021), 61-67


I have ended you with my busy schedule right now. Started packing today because we leave Tuesday, August 11 for the states for several weeks, then we fly on to Germany for two weeks and back to Panama. Also, my new book, Eyewitness to Healing, has taken over my time. I’m currently revising Chapter 13. There are eighteen chapters in the book, and my deadline to my editor looms over me.

So, yes, I have wrestled with God. Always I have come out on the other side a wiser person with a deeper faith. How about you? Do you wrestle with God_ What have you wrestled with God about in the past? Recently?

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Yes, I wrestled with God!

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