My Thoughts

Day 25 – Larada—A Poem Shows Me!

Larada is my name. My life has been 72 years of wonder and adventure. Today was a sad day—my Denver Broncos lost the AFC Championship game to the New England Patriots, but I’m proud of them.

Every Sunday I write this blog. Usually the day overflows with my morning Quiet Time of writing my Morning Pages and reading recovery devotionals and my Bible. Then I attend my church on Facebook Life from Albuquerque. Football has dominated our Sundays for the last few months. Then evening I attend on Zoom a recovery meeting. Whew!

On top of all of that, I’ve been participating in the Ultimate Blog Challenge for the month of January. I’ve only missed three days which seems pretty good to me. This commitment has been exhausting to me, but so rich and fun!

So tonight, I want to share a poem about Larada from my new book, Time Measured Out!: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry.

I’m tired—losing that game was hard. So here we go!

I wrote this poem in 2002, twenty-four years ago. That’s what makes this five-book poetry series so precious—you have the privilege of seeing me grow as a poet and seeing me in some of my most vulnerable moments and years. See, I never wrote these poems to publish them, but I decided a couple years ago to share them!

Natalie Goldberg is one of my writing mentors. Known for the writing book, Writing Down the Bone, I used her concepts in my literature and language arts classes I taught. At this time, I was teaching, so being in a workshop with her ignited me! That’s where this poem came from in its spacious musing about who I was!

Enjoy this poem and let me know what you think of it!

2002

Natalie Goldberg Workshop

I am turquoise, red, hot pink
And purple, a kaleidoscope
Of color rearranging
Changing as the parts of
Me fall into place.

The turquoise reflects the
Peace and calm deep within me
Like the waters
Of the Mexican Caribbean.

The red in me ignites into a flame—
Passionate and energetic
But hot to touch.

The hot pink cries out
Notice me, I’m present—
You can’t ignore me
Anymore.

The purple states my power
That place inside me that has
Matured to womanhood
But still holds a girlish twinkle.

A waltz,
A jitterbug, a swing dance,
The Latin rhythm of rumba,
Or bolero.

The depth of me expresses itself
In dance,
The spiritual connection to
The music,
The beat,
The magic, and the sway!

The me totally revealed on
The dance floor,
Vulnerable,
Bare,
Connected to my partner
And me
And the song.

If this poem, speaks to you, go and buy a copy at Amazon–and leave a review. I would appreciate it.

Who are you? Have you ever thought of yourself as a color? As your favorite hobby like dancing? This sort of musing expands our thought process, creating space to enlarge your view of yourself. Don’t we all need this! Move away from the norm, the status quo—jump out there! Be turquoise—be Larada!


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My logo graphic really highlights this poem!

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My Thoughts

Day 24 – Giving Blood at 72—Not Allowed!

Giving blood

Giving blood to someone who needs B+—I was up for it, and we even drove the forty minutes to David but was refused! Because of my age!

A couple days ago on one of the Boquete Facebook pages, someone needed nine pints of B+ blood to have an operation. Immediately Lin and I discussed it because I thought I had B+ blood. Then we searched to find something to confirm it. Finally, we found it.

So, I googled the hospital and got a phone number and texted them. They shared important information, and we planned to go.

Later, Lin came up with more specific questions, so I texted them to the number for the hospital and went to bed.

So yesterday morning, we drove to the hospital in David. They responded to the text with specific identification of the building where I could give blood, but not specific directions.

We arrived at the hospital about 9:15 AM and we could not find a parking spot. Eventually we found one at the hospital next door. So, we walked over, but still we didn’t know exactly where we were going, only knew we were looking for Tower F.

So I did what I do in a crunch like that—I ask questions of anyone who looks like they might know.

Eventually, after asking a couple people, we found the building. Someone graciously walked us over to the place to draw blood.

I looked at the waiting room, and I saw a sizeable crowd! Oh, my! I stood in line and was waited on quickly. The receptionist understood my Spanish and had a stern look on her face, as she seemed to measure me.

Immediately she asked for my birthdate and how old I was?

I told her my birthdate, “I’m 72.”

She asked for my ID card and peered at the computer screen for a couple minutes, then she stated, “You cannot give blood.”

I asked if it was age. She said, “Yes!”

Lin had found a seat and was waiting patiently in the waiting room. I told him the news and he seemed surprised.

So it wasn’t a wasted trip, we did accomplish something we had intended to do since we arrived here—we registered our insurance cards with one of the hospitals.

On the drive home, I texted the hospital number to let them know I had come to give blood, but hey refused me because of my age. I asked if they knew why.

Their response, “I don’t know.”

So I headed straight to google for the answer:

“Upper age limits for blood donors are intended to protect elderly blood donors from donor reactions. However, due to a lack of data about adverse reactions in elderly blood donors, upper age limits are arbitrary and vary considerably between different countries.”

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4164071

after some more research on the age limits set for giving blood, I saw there’s a dire need for donors in Panama, so how sad it is they follow the rule when people might need my blood. I just hope the man awaiting his surgery got enough blood to do it.

Giving blood

Have you ever donated blood? Yes, it’s not pleasant, but you can help someone in need, and some day you might be the person in need! Think about that!

Larada Horner-Miller graphic - giving blood
I’m only 72!!!!!

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Germany · Ireland & England · My Thoughts · Scotland · Spain · Travel

Day 23 – The 10 Coolest Places I’ve Visited

Passports & travel stuff - coolest

In the last fourteen years since Lin and I have married, we have visited the coolest places all over the world. Here they are!

Nestled on the top of a mountainous plateau, this town spoke to my heart. We didn’t ride the mules up to Santorini, but we walked down among them. The views were amazing and it felt like a magical city.

While we were in Rome, Lin became my tour guide because he’s so good with maps. I clocked 27,000 steps in one day as he took me from one historic sight to another. To end the day, we did a gastronomical tour that required still more walking, but it was amazing. We savored the food and the fun with the guide.

We visited Naples twice on a cruise, but we didn’t see much of the city, but we went out to two major sights I will never forget: Pompeii and Herculean. Unbelievable history at its best! So, I always connect them with Naples.

The day we visited Munich, our tour guide spoke several times of places Hitler spoke at or had been at, and it resonated with my soul. I had read about the horrors of the Hitler regime, but to hear his name connected with buildings I saw as we drove by shocked me. The tour guide emphatically warned against the Neo-Nazi groups of today.

The castle on the hill overlooking the city stands out in my mind as I think of Edinburgh—so majestic, so regal. After touring the castle, we had a delightful time walking the Royal Mile, shopping and enjoying the culture. A young man adopted us and helped Lin buy a kilt and all its accessories there!

I booked our accommodations there and wanted an inexpensive place. We ended up in a hostel with spartan accommodations that met our needs. I had to leave my driver’s license as collateral for a blow dryer, but it was right across the street from the Guiness Storehouse, so that worked out well when we did the tour.

We saw “Les Misérables” in a theater on the West Side of London and my husband said he would never go to a theater in the states again—it was so outstanding!

Once again, Lin’s mastering of maps helped us use the subway there like experts!

The brilliance of Antonio Gaudí’s artwork graces so much of Barcelona, but my favorite is the Sagrada Familia. When we toured it, the structure and creativity overwhelmed me. I remember the light radiating through the stained glass windows and just walking around in a circle to capture it all.

As we watched a Flamenco dance troupe perform, I had to pinch myself. The beauty and stylistic nature of Flamenco dancing has always captivated me, but to actually be in Seville watching it was surreal! The skirts, the clicking of the castanets and the soulful music filled the air. Again it was magical and the coolest!

We had an extra day in Lisbon because of an unexpected delay, so we went to Óbidos on a tour. This walled city felt like a step back in time. We enjoyed shopping and sampling goodies throughout the town and didn’t want to leave.

Wow! As I identified these ten coolest places I’ve visited, I realized I could add to this list probably ten more. Our world offers such great places to visit! Make sure you visit one or all of these!

Lin & Larada at Red River, New Mexico - coolest
Travel with me to wherever!

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Time Measured Out!: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry, Book #2 e-book

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ISBN – 979-8989688623

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haiku · MY LIFE · My Thoughts · My Writing · Ranching

Day 22 – The Many Hats I Wear: Changing Constantly!

Hats

I wear many different hats in my life today and have over the years. Currently the hats I wear vary and require different things from me.

I love to write, and I enjoy writing in a variety of genres. My collection of ten books varies: poetry, memoir, biography, historical fiction, biography and essays. So I don’t stick to just one, and it’s worked for me for years. But recently, I have focused more on poetry—free verse poetry. I’ve published two poetry books in a five-book poetry series.

Also, I love to write haikus. As a literature & language arts teacher, I did a poetry unit every year with my students, and I had them write haiku. Back then, I didn’t write haikus though.

When the pandemic hit in 2020, I did a lot of walking on our lane in the east mountains above Albuquerque, winter and summer. The rhythmic walking and my interest in haikus opened the door to my writing them. While I walked, the lines came to me and I recorded them when I got home.

Then Natalie Goldberg’s book, Three Simple Lines: A Writer’s Pilgrimage into the Heart and Homeland of Haiku, inspired me to write more. I love the simple framework of the 3 lines—5 syllables, 7 syllables, 5 syllables—give me. It forces me to be selective about word choice—totally different than any other writing I do.

My next project is an autofiction book, part autobiography and part fiction. I’ve written 50,000 words already, so I just need to revise it, but I keep pushing it to the back burner because everything else pushes ahead of it.

Because I self-publish my books, I have to do it all—write the book, layout of books, publishing and marketing. Deeply, I love all of it except marketing. It consumes my time with the ads, the questions what to do, the different social media apps, the financial demands and everything.

For years, I haven’t made a definite marketing plan, but this year I have, and I hope I stick to it!

My brother and I co-own our family ranch in southeastern Colorado that has been our family for almost 100 years. He lives in the community near our ranch, so he’s the boots-on-the-ground guy. I do the business side. Today, I labored at balancing the checkbook. Usually, I balance it to the penny. Today, I’m $1.69 off and I hate that.

Also, I’ve been busy entering the checkbook into an Open-Source app to prepare for our 2025 taxes. Managing our finances keeps me connected to our ranch, even though I live 5,000+ miles away now. The only way I can possible do it is through the internet.

Since I was viciously attacked by a dog on July24, 2024, my dance life disappeared, and that activity fed my soul. Coming from a dancing family, I have danced my whole life. My parents glided across the dance floor on sawdust and dirt at our country dances.

On New Year’s Eve, Lin, my husband, and I danced at a local bar here in Boquete, mostly just to rock and roll music, but it was movement to music! For one song, we danced a Cha Cha, and my heart soared. Later in the evening, another dance song came on and we did a mean jitterbug. Oh, I miss the days!

My faith keeps me going. I am Episcopalian by choice, but I haven’t found a church yet here in Boquete, Panama. There seems to be mostly Protestant and Catholic churches. Because of this, I have attended Hope in the Desert Episcopal Church in Albuquerque, New Mexico on Facebook, Livestream, my church before we moved.

I have issues today with so many Christians turning away from Jesus’ teachings in loving the immigrant, feeding the poor and loving our neighbors, so that has affected my attending any churches here so far. I will find a place and land, I’m sure.

I have been in recovery for 37 years and it’s the basis of my life. It saved my life. So a big plus here—a strong active recovery community. I still have my connections back in Albuquerque, but I see that I will fit in here for sure.

Yes, that’s a big hat to wear today. We just won the game last week against the Buffalo Bills, a hard-fought fight. Immediately after the game we heard our quarterback, Bo Nix, broke a bone in his ankle and is out for the rest of the year. So, I’m preparing emotionally for the game on Sunday where our backup quarterback, Jarrett Stidham, will fill in the void.

I’ve been a fan for years—been happy with the winning years and stuck with them through the lean years.

Yes, I wear a variety of hats, bouncing back and forth between activities, demands and loves of my life. The rich variety makes my life full—I wouldn’t want it any other way!

Larada in her pink hat
I love my pink hat!

Larada in a hat

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My Newest Books

Time Measured Out!: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry, Book #2 e-book

ISBN – 9798989688654

$.99 for limited time

is my truth universal? book cover

Is My Truth Universal?: A Woman’s Poetic Odyssey e-book

ISBN – 979-8989688623

ALWAYS FREE

Was It a Dream? book cover

Was It a Dream?: Navigating Life’s Journey Through Poetry, Book #1 – e-book

ISBN – 979-8989688630

 $3.99


Buy My Audio Books:

This Tumbleweed Landed

Let Me Tell You a Story 

Hair on Fire: A Heartwarming & Humorous Memoir Audiobook


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